Bucket List - RAKUGAKI-GARO　　　　《楽描画廊》

死ぬまでにやりたいこと100個書き出す

I write down 100 things I want to do before I die

大げさなことでもなく毎年新年には必ず書いている。財布が欲しいとかどうでもいいところから器の大きな人間になりたいとかそうそういうところまで思いついたことをただ書き出すだけ。

それでも数年たって見直すと叶っていることがあったりする。やはり書き出すことで意識付けされていくんだと思う

This is not an exaggeration, but I always write it down every New Year. I just write down whatever comes to my mind, from something as small as wanting a wallet to becoming a person with a big heart or something like that. Even if it doesn't come true right away, when I look back on it a few years later, I find that it has come true. I believe that writing these things down has an effect on my unconscious self

昨年は自分の不甲斐なさを実感した年だった。

私は４０代になってから専門職になって自立する！！！と意気込んで社会福祉士の専門学校に行き国家試験を合格しついでに精神保健福祉士も合格した。転々と職場を変えながら相談業務をしていたけれど、数年たって夜も眠れなくなって、動悸とか息苦しいとか体の調子が悪くなってきた。毎日毎日他人の事を考えて、自分の意志ではなく人に振り回されて生きているような気がしてきた。そしてもう人のために生きるのが嫌になった。自分なりに相当頑張って勉強して仕事をしたつもりだったけど、もう無理だと思った。福祉の仕事はもうきっぱりとやめることにした。他人から見れば根性なしのへたれにみえるだろう。そして今年のBucket List は100個書かないことにした。小さな目標を25個。他人軸ではなく自分が幸せだと思えることをやろうと思う。

I felt my own uselessness last year. I was over 40 years old and determined to become a professional and become independent! I went to a vocational school for social workers and passed the national exam to become a mental health worker. I changed workplaces but continued to work as a consultant. After a few years, I couldn't sleep at night, and my heart started palpitating, I had trouble breathing, and my body started to feel sick. Every day I thought about other people, and I began to feel as if I was being pushed around by others and not by my own will. And I was sick of living for others. I thought I had studied and worked very hard in my own way, but I thought I couldn't do it anymore. I am quitting welfare work once and for all. I will look like a coward and no guts to others.
I decided not to write 100 items on my bucket list this year. I will set 25 small goals. I will do what makes me happy, not what others think of me.

ところで私たち家族はとても映画好き。毎年年末から年始にかけて元気が出る映画を見る。今年はこのふたつを見た。とても前向きになれる素敵な作品。

By the way, our family is very movie buffs. Every year from the end of the year to the beginning of the new year, we watch movies that cheer us up. This year we saw these two. They are very positive and nice movies.
★The Greatest Showman
★Christopher Robin
I also watched “The Backet List” which is based on a movie that has been remade in Japan and is very famous.
★The Bucket List
But I always think of this movie when I hear this story... It's not the same as Backet List... but I like this movie very much and recommend it!
★Knockin' on Heaven's Door
A German film about two men with little time left to live, who travel to the sea.

★グレイティストショーマンhttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Greatest_Showman

★プーと大人になった僕https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christopher_Robin_(film)

それからBacket List についてはもとになっている映画があって日本でもリメイクされていてとても有名

★最高の人生のみつけ方 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Bucket_List

でも私はこの話の内容を聞くといつもこの映画を思い出す…Backet List とは違うけど…これはとても好きな作品でおすすめ

★天国の扉　https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Knockin%27_on_Heaven%27s_Door_(1997_film)